Amber

Fight

 

Why don’t they get it?

What is wrong with me?

Doctors act like I’m throwing a fit. 

It’s frustrating that they just can’t see.

 

Day after day, I deal with the pain

Not sure of a cause or a cure

Am I making this up? Going insane?

How much of this must I endure?

 

Take a break

Leave the room

Pop some pills

Say a prayer

 

I told Him I was ready

 

Head to the ER

the pain won’t go away

testing for both common and bizarre

looks like we must extend our stay

 

Finally some results.

Brain surgery sounds scary

Add injury to insults,

my friends and family are wary

 

Take a break

Leave the room

Pop some pills

Say a prayer

 

I told Him I was ready

 

So, they shrink my brain stem

and take some of my spine

problem.

mine.

 

like swiss cheese—

bones don’t look quite right

lymph, just do what you should, please

I’m high as a kite

 

Take a break

Leave the room

Pop some pills

Say a prayer

 

I told Him I was ready

 

Recovery is rough

headaches should be gone

but you’ll find that I’m tough

c’mon

 

Life returns to “normal”

as normal as can be

things are about to get formal

let’s plan a great big party

 

Take a break

Leave the room

Pop some pills

Say a prayer

 

I told Him I was ready

 

confirmation

joy

justification

peace

 

every symptom had a reason

the history of my life laid out

starting a new season,

leaving behind the doubt

 

thanks for listening

thanks for your trust

thanks for giving meaning

thanks for being a must

 

It is rare

and stones are left unturned

so thankful for those that care

the meeting is not yet adjourned

 

This illness is forever,

but define me it does not.

We are in this together

they will remember how we fought